Saturday, January 22, 2011

Foolish hope

 

Killing is crime
You’ve killed my soul

    Love is like war
    Everything is fair, o dear

I gave you all my love
But you betrayed me

    You knew I flirt
    What'd you expect from me?

I thought you would change
My love would compel you
   
    Ha! Love's an artistic word 
    Wake up, it has failed you

Will not you come back to me?
I will wait for you

    My life's like a journey in rosy garden
    Every day I start anew

You'll come back to me
If my love is true

    You believe not me but your stupid heart
    Poor chap, your love has again betrayed you...

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Some difficult questions

 

Week by week, we do live like a programmed being hardly doing anything different from our daily ritual. Many a time I sit and think, Am I satisfied? And for 99% times, it replies No. What makes me not fully satisfied? Is there a feeling, in reality, when one can feel fully satisfied? I don’t know if we have lost the meaning of true contentment or we ever understood it. I really don’t know. 

If I look back at my schedule a few weeks ago I had so many things on my plate and planning these had become burdensome. I had the plans but still looking at the list made me loose time just thinking about the long list. I have to do this; I have to do that…such a long list. Then I think and ask Why do I am running so fast? Why do I have run after things? I need to go slow. Then I slow down and days go by. Then again one evening, I sit and ponder and see how days few by and that time is lost. There’s no thrill or any excitement in life.

I think that we all are different and born with different wished and different purposes. Each of us wants something and the most difficult is to identify that something. We have so many expectations from ourselves, in this world. We always want to see ourselves grow and move ahead. A stagnancy or even a slowdown makes us restless. I realise this and ask myself, Why do I have to be so hard on myself? When I ask this question to myself, I know that I know, I don’t have to be. But then even slowing down doesn't give contentment in long run.

It’s a difficult question for sure, with different answers for different people, in different situation and at different points of life. I don’t know if there is an exact answer or it’s quest for Life. As of now, I have decided I need to find the right balance for right now.

P.S. This post is more of questions than answers. I would like to hear your comments and your thoughts about Life and how do you set the balance. Or do you just go with the flow? Have you ever felt a deep satisfaction, ever?

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Transformation

 

Like the sand that accompany the breeze,
Clear my mind
...Make me free

Like the palm that tune with the wind
Make me flexible
...Make me strong

Like the waves that greet the rocks
To celebrate now
...teach me how

Like the Nature that spreads unrestricted
Hold me in your arms
...And show me the unlimited in Me

- Megha

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

The Other Side

 

Sometime back I was in a situation and a few thoughts emerged…

Comparison and dissatisfaction are part of our life. With it brings a look out for different options than the current. Then we strive, think about it day and night, grudge about the present circumstances, swear names. We dream about the objective, find ways to achieve it. We work really hard for our objective. But very commonly it may happen that once you achieve it, it may lose it’s importance as if it never mattered or once you get on the grounds of the other side you start seeing the positive aspects of the current. It isn’t that bad, you think. Off course, this may not be the case with everything and everyone, but it’s not unusual too. 

The proverb ‘The grass is always greener on the other side’ is much true and so is the fascination for the road less travelled. Most often we are aware of the negative aspects of our objective subconsciously but still the drive for it is so strong that the issues appear minor, we blindfold ourselves and run behind it coz the grass on the other side looks more promising.

But I have noticed that we can actually weigh the situation or an objective correctly and practically on the scales only when we are aware and have been on both the sides, otherwise our decisions are always unguided and partial. Maybe that’s why they say ‘Experience matters’. Even a third person who isn’t in the situation cannot do justice many a times, he may give a practical advise, but he may not be in the same emotional front as we are. We can listen to everyone but the decision has to be taken solely by ourselves.

Actually, it’s a simple rule but still almost everyone falls into this trap, maybe coz we are humans and this is the way life works. We make choices, right and wrong, and then we learn, we gain experience.

Change is inevitable part of life. Today we are satisfied, tomorrow we may not be. Comparisons begin and we start for a same journey, yet again…

Saturday, January 08, 2011

Unsung Song

 

Walking in wilderness,
Through the way unmarked
Without destination
No expectations or doubts, when my soul will start

I want to walk and keep walking
For no one but for only me
Even if days go by
Without the food or society*

Wild nature and Loneliness
Will it bring me closer to ME?
The soul lost in this freaky society
Will then jerk from it's sleeping spree

That's the destination, it knows
Before it's ultimate sleep
But it's afraid to cross the line
The society is where it's still rooted deep

The society is cruel
With senses, pleasures, holds it strong
Time passes away…the soul never steps out for it’s journey
And dies wailing, his Life song died unsung
- Megha

* society refers to the materialistic society